i think i need a break

from the everyday routine, from physical and emotional stress of our family situation, from the desire to do things that I want but can't, and from being overwhelmed of everything that is happening in my country, in my missionary life, in my family, in me.

but right now, I know that I just can't. I have to postpone it. so that I won't hear any word of complain. of accusation. of... whatever.

so Lord, hold me. help me retain my sanity. teach me to smile when i feel tired. allow me to still be thankful when i feel like complaining. and grant me a big heart to love, when i want to give up.

coz i know, that I won't be able to do anything without you Lord.

Amen.